ASSALAMUALAIKUM
and Remember I`ll always
RIGHT NEXT TO YOU
I`m sorry....
Sorry for being
fake
Fake by pretending strong and tough
infront you
The whole week was filled with my tears over and
over..Million and one things dumped me.I feel so terrible.I just can`t bear the
sorrowful feeling anymore.It`s awful.I don`t know what to do..I`m lost!! As for
me this is going to be a big disaster to me..I think i can`t hold up this
feeling anymore..This terrifying moment takes place in the last week of school.
HERE,THERE,EVERYWHERE -Everything
is just not right-but i`m just be ‘strong’ and tough infront you.From the very
first day i knew that i can`t bear this alone but i`m just trying to be strong
in front of you..Smile whenever i`m hanging out with you, sweety friends and again
just smile prettily when i`m dealing with our dedicate teachers and
continuingly the smile when i`m run off with anyone..I`m always smile and
authentic in school,I bet never show my weakness (my prob) to all my
besties..(see,how fake i`m)argh!! Sorry buddies (T-T)cause as for me, i` ve a vision
that “never ever make my friends worrried about me,cause this insists them
thinking about me day and night and most importantly never fade away their
happy face because of me..Forget all the problems and always smile for them.”
For me your smile is
really valuable and worthwhile.My heart crushes down if i see you crying in an
apparel - My biggest weakness no 2- .I can`t bear that.That`s why i`m always
ready borrowing my shoulder to you if you need me and always smile for you..SO,whenever
someone asks me “Salam,hye,ko ok
x??naper termenung jer??..kiter ader wat salah kat ko ker??then i`ll just
answer blissfully“wassalam..oh,i`m just fine largh awak..termenung?? x der
largh just feeling jiwang jer.. eh,teraser ker??hahaha..X der largh mner ader
ko wat salah ngan kiter poon..relax sudah..Shortly after,i`m just starting to
change the topic for instance =eh,fb aper cer..ko ngan...bla bla bla.. (see, act, i`m pretty good in changing a topic..huhu)Once again I`m
determined to be strong whenever i`m
with you..Never let you know what is bobbing and jumping in my hyperactive
mind..That`s me.ok, sometime i`m not all in, in my act which is always smiling
for them (kdg2 kantoi gak=klo yg kantoi tuh largh baruu mereker akan tnyer cam
tuh..huhu)..
For me friends are everything
(afer my family largh ), i `m wiling to give my friends anything they asked for if it`s reasonable.I always
bear this in my mind ‘dude,you must always smile and shine for them as
everytime they smile you`ll smile and everytime they shine you`ll shine for
them”.The sky is not always bright and the rain wil fall occasionally.Yes I admit it.If someone tells me that my
friends badmouth on me ,I`ll just smile
and planted this saying deeply in my heart “x per largh,susah nak puaskan hati
semua orang mungkin aku pun wat salah jugak ”.I`ll never mad at them instead to
avoid it,i`ll keep a distance for a while until i find the calmness i haunt
for.A couple days then,i`ll be ok.(FYI=Selalunya...Saya klo saya terasa ngan
seseorang,saya nangis L).Once again, to make it as a point, I am and always
stand up with my mind, which is always smile for them eventhough i am enduring
a super mega big trouble.I`ll try my
best....Cause this is me..Love being myself.
Don`t worry if something really really really really really
really really really really really bad dumped me again i`ll share to you..You
can reckon on me like 1,2,3.I know you always be there for me..I`m sorry for my
bad tendency for not telling you my
problem..I`m just not too dare to share it cause I know you are also enduring a mega,monstery problem. “Everyone has their
own problem.Right?” I just don`t want to double up your problem.As for now,let
me continuing my act which is to be strong and tough infront you.I`ll always
trying to be strong in front of you until the right time comes up.(please let
me) .~Someday where the light is shining and my heart is open~.. There,I`ll
tell and share you everything.I`m sorry.Sorry for being fake by pretending strong and tough in front
you..
P/S => Hati saya sakit gak klo x jujur ngan korang..
Monologue=> 3 benda yang Saya kurang suka klo orang wat (x der kener
mengener)
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x hormat orang lain pas2 nak diri dier
dihormati..arghh how come??
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org cakap elok2 ngan dier, dier cakap kasar .
“Nak jadi ‘hubby saya’??sorry awal2 lagi saya reject.
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Guner kekerasan untuk selesaikan sesuatu. Bagi
saya “biar lembut asal tegas”.
But i know nobody is perfect.(saya pun sama gak banyak
kekurangan contohnya ada kat artikel di atas) so,let`s together change
for the better day
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
And there you are on your knees,begging but
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
And there you are on your knees,begging but
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
The End :o diaapplestory